11 pm, flopping down,
the air is stale,
the pillow exhales loudly.

Breathing in with expectation
of her smell, rewarded
with sneeze and cough.

My mind makes a
false memory and tells
me she is still here.

Forcing a smile at
my ability to still
believe, knowing I lie.

The air is stale,
her smell is gone.

© Jeremiah Stillings – 2018

Author Notes: This was written after watching God’s Promise to me walk out of my life.